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My tea's gone cold, I'm wondering why I
got out of bed at all
The morning rain clouds up my window,
And I can't see at all
And even if I could it'd all be grey
But your picture on my wall
It reminds me that it's not so bad
It's not so bad

I drank too much last night, got bills to pay
My head just feels in pain
I missed the bus and there'll be hell today
I'm late for work again
And even if I'm there, they'll all imply
That I might not last the day
And then you call me and it's not so bad
It's not so bad

I want to thank you
For giving me the best day of my life
Oh, just to be with you
Is having the best day of my life

Push the door,I'm home at last
And I'm soaking through and through
Then you handed me a towel
And all I see is you
And even if my house falls down now
I wouldn't have a clue
Because you're near me and

I want to thank you
For giving me the best day of my life
Oh, just to be with you
Is having the best day of my life

I want to thank you
For giving me the best day of my life
Oh, just to be with you
Is having the best day of my life

( DIDO)

Today is the day I cried most in my life....

Now I dont have enough tear for crying more. I only want to go so far....so far...to another world that nobody can find out me.

What is happening in our relation ? The married killed our love and the good things we used to have, didnt it ?

Now, I want to have a small package and go....go to anywhere I can go........

I used to say with my honey that : If we have some daughters, I will buy for them many many Japanese dolls in Hina Matsuri day.
Hina Matsuri day is the day for girls . Certainly it is a big festival in Japan. It is happened on 3rd, May every years.

In the Japanese ancient beliefs, Japanese people thought that : The dolls replaced for the girls or boys so every bad or evil spirits could not penetrate to the souls of people. First time, they made the paper dolls and brought to the Shrine to exorcized then fired them and that ceremony happned in only the royal family or the rich .

Time by time, that ceremony became more popular and now, it is the color of the morden life in Japan.

The collection of dolls usually has 4~5 levels, but now it has 3 or only 1 couple of the king and queen . The image of the King and Queen and the royal family have the meaning that all the girls would have a sufficient and happy life .
We can see the clothes of the king and queen are in the Heian time because the kimonos have many layers so many people think that the Hina Matsuri festival started in Heian time but in fact, it started in the Edo time ( 17th century ) and become the national festival in 1687.

In that day, Japanese wagashi cake is this cake. It has 3 colors and called Hishi mochi. It is made by rice powder ( mochi ). The colors are : green, the fresh of the summer , white is the fresh of the snow in winter and pink is the color of Sakura flower.

But when you display your collection, please be careful with Neko-sanma.

Today it rains nearly all day.
I wished I could stay in a small coffee shop in Hanoi. It is a really pretty coffee shop and nearby the old church....ah~, and the taste of tea is so good, too.
Some days , I dont know why my feeling has changed so bad. I am finding somebody who can hear me talk and who can see my tears.
My husband cannot do that. He has his own problem that I dont want to bring for him my tired anymore.....finally, his care isnt me.....I used to think so. He can hear the dream voice of our dog easily but If I get up in night time or dont sleep all nights, he still fall alseep and starts : z..zzz....zzz....
And when I cook, he enjoys his time with his computer........computer,blog,mobile.....sometimes he made me think that : Dont have a wife, its ok. But dont have a computer, the world is in the end.
His enthralled for me now doesnt exist. He even doesnt know why I sad or angry.....and needs to ask me ....
Everything, I am tired with everything. Sometimes, I wish I can have a forever sleeping...........

Tired..Tired...Tired......I hate my face , I hate my hair, I hate my free, I hate my loneliness................

Today when I heard this song about Saigon ( Hochiminh city ), my tears went out and could not hold my feelings about the memories of Saigon.

Saigon is a really young city. One time you were born in Saigon, you will never forget the love for it.

" Have you still remembered or forgotten?
Saigon, the city of sunny and rainny together,
The night lights wait for you in your sleepings
And the mornings say hello with you by the green leaves.

Have you still remembered or forgotten ?
The full of streets, noisy and busy
The sleepless nights of the poor people
The sounds of the rains in a sunny day.
That is the Saigon, you love.

Although you have gone away,
The city will never forget you
Always waits for its children come back
Have you still remembered or forgotten ?
Because the streets remember your foots
In every ways.

Two seasons come and leave,
Only the streets hear the rains and sun....."

I moved to Hanoi 9 years old ago. In the 3 years, every nights in my dreams was the sound and image of Saigon. I cried and thought that I could never return the city I love. If somebody says Hanoi is as charming as a princess, but with me Saigon is more than that. Saigon is the mixing of old and new. It has the old feelings in its breathe and its own dynamic .
Saigoners can proud of the city because 300 years ago, the first people came this land, all were poor people, the people that old country left and forgot them. They were prisoners, workers, farmers, poorers...and the first thing they saw that this land were deep in sea and water. All their doing were made a land that could live a normal live. And after 300 years, 2 wars with French and American, Vietnamese has a city in dream.

And until now, I am still proud of being a Saigoner.

Ah~, Where is my time ? I asked myself that when I finished the washing.
It was so poor for my washing machine in a sunny day like today. I used it 2 times for washing nearly all iterms that made by cloths in my house.
I like the sun because it can help my  cleaning and washing be done  earlier than usual . And after that , my house seems to be clearer. But although I washed them, my husband hasnt never asked me : oh ~ you washed them ? They have a good smell, I guess so.

In fact, the time for me in a day is so short. I mean, I was so busy with my house work that when I have a resting, my eyes only want to close in a sleepy feeling.
But I didnt say that I didnt love the house work because I am a sister of a boy. Every sisters of the boys understand that If they have a younger brother, how much cleaning and washing they have to do from their childhood to teenage and after get married, they will have another man to take care. So, it is certainly that they need to love doing housework......

I like cooking, washing and cleaning. Because I cannot live in a house that have a bad smell of dirty clothes or the smell of food that stays long time in the walls in my kitchen. So with me, washing is the number one.
But sometimes, I get bored with my housework because I feel it make me to become a poor woman. As nearly all the woman in this world, I always try to keep my good image with every people who can see me, even my husband. So thats why, everytime I think about the salon, nails, cosmetic and parfume. With me, I can wear a normal clothes, but I cannot show a normal face with the black points of ances or tired face with the red eyes and the hair that make another people thinks about the house of a chicken.
So, thats why I try to keep my body and clothes cleaning. But sometimes, in my friends weddings, I met my last friends who got married before me one year....my God...I cannot live like that. I cannot think some of them wear the roomwear clothes and pyjamas to the party. Although, those parties were in the countryside but parties were the parties, it means you need to dress up. You can wear the T-shirt and jeans to a wedding but you cannot wear a roomwear and on your hand are holding a baby. Thats really a nightmare with me. But I cannot do anything for them and only prayed that their husband didnt see those image.

Ah~, relax ~ relax ~ I want to have a cup of coffee with my friends and little chatting now. But.............um~ my friend now is only my husband and he doesnt want to go outside this time. Its not because he is not good , the reason that he bought some clothes for me this month and now we need to consider again about our money. So, I wish I could have a job now.

I hate learning maths but now, I usually calculate our payments in each month. Exactly, I only calculate and after that I cannot do anymore. Last time, when I see my husband assigned the bank card, I thought he did it for me. But it was for him. Until now, I didnt know how many bank cards he has. Because of the polite, I didnt ask him about that. Well, finally, I dont pay all the payments so why I need to know about that. He thought like that, didnt he ?.....
Oh~, finally I need to keep myself : relax~ relax~

WILL I BE HAPPY ? Jiro asked himself that question in his blog.
Today when I remembered that I have a dictionary so I wanted to read his blog and I saw his question.

Finally he asked himself that.
Finally he showed his real thinking.

In fact, his words as a sharp knife to cut my heart and my believe in our love.
He is tired about me, about what we are having and about our arguments.
He thinks I didnt feel sorry with him ? And I didnt feel sorry with what I said to him ????

How can I do ? And what can I do for my love ?

I like writting my normal day in this online diary although my English writting is very bad and I forget as much my grammar as I have never learnt English before.
I like the classic in the English. It is the real English-English, not the American English. But my friend uses the Sing-lish ( it means the English of Singapore ) so when she speaks, as she is singing a song that I cannot understand much.

And my husband speak J-lish ( means English of Japanese ), but he speaks slowly so I can understand almost he says, but sometimes, I cannot because he needs to find the way to talk with me about a difficult thing. But anyway, I love him so we can understand each other quite easily.

Next week, I have an interview for my new job. And with his worried, I feel so worried now. Japanese people doesnt want to use English so if they cannot understand me, it means I need to change to talk by Japanese but my japanese is nearly Zero

Turn back to my love story, its now having a good ending for Jiro and me. But life isnt easy, every time I think so. But its more easy when I dont have any members in my family to help me. I and he need to try to do everything alone. But my Jiro has been doing that in a long time, now only me.

Today is a good day, and I think about our memories. I hope everything will be good with I and him.

Hey, this is our honey travel after we got married. I cannot call it was a honey moon because we was busy but I hope, we can have a real honey moon when we make the 1 year wedding ceremony.

Follow her sponsor schedule, in the evening of 7th Jan, 2009, the Miss World 2008 ,Ksenia Sukhinova has come to Hochiminh city , started her long sponsorship in Vietnam .
These are her photos in the conference in Hochiminh city

At 7.00 pm yesterday night, the first time that Vietnamese football team wrote again the history of Asian Cup when againsted to Thailand team with the score 1-1.
On 24th December, Vietnam won Thailan 2-1 and yesterday, with the score 1-1, Vietnam was the first time that have the Asain Cup .
Mr Cong Vinh, who didnt play well in the startings but he played very sharpenly yesterday night and his score by head fighting helped Vietnamese team could have a winning as a dream .

Because of waitting for a long time to win Thailand, Vietnamese people had 2 nights sleepless to cheer with the team.

Every people tried to shout and cry " Vietnam, champion " and demonstrated on all the streets in over the country from South to North. Hochiminh city, Hanoi city, Vinh city....all were sleepless. The happiness was full in their heart.

Before the game, Thailand coach, Mr Peter Reid said surely that Thailand would won the cup. But after the game, his face was covered by a sadness and angry. In the interview, he still kept his thinking that Thailan is a really strongest team in the Cup but lost their lucky.

And this is the man who makes the Vietnamese dream became true, Mr Calisto

" We played all our best and we won " he said with all the people .

Congratulation to Vietnamese football team ! I love you all !